My Journey

This post won't delve deep into my psyche, because who has time for that? Not me for sure. I'm just going to list the major happenings in my recent life and save the deep analysis for another time.

My Aunt
My beloved aunt passed two weeks ago. The way she died, hurt. It hurt a lot. She didn't deserve to die surrounded in squalor. I'm trying to be open minded towards my cousins, because I don't know what went down between my aunt and them. It's hard, VERY hard to remain calm and not want to drop them into a volcano. From what I did observe my cousins really didn't make a real effort to help her with, well, anything. She was an elderly woman who wasn't tech savvy and didn't have full command of the English language. She needed help...from THEM.

To make matters worse the funeral is set for...January 14th, 2026.

Yeah.

I'm almost sure this means she was cremated. According to my mom, my aunt paid for a spot in a mausoleum and did not want to be cremated. I don't know. We'll all have to wait until the service to see what is going on and my cousin's explanations.

My Mom
She fell and I took her to the ER because she hit her head. Four hours later and she was released with no apparent head trauma or broken bones. THANK GOD. Next year I plan on redecorating/rearranging her room to minimize fall risk since she's an elderly woman. For now, I've added more lighting and moved some of her stuff away from her bed area.

My mom also needs major dental work done. Guess who has to pay for it? If you guessed me, you are correct! She's my mom, I'm always going to help her out.

My Sister
She has really stepped up these past two years. She even realized MAGA is a scam. Sure, her eyes were opened only when it affected her, but I suppose it's better late than never. I decided she deserved a new laptop. Will this finally compel her to get a job? Probably not.

Jobs
I'm letting go of the warehouse gig work and the freelance. I'll keep the part-time warehouse work since it's steady. After this month I'll put all my effort into finding ONE traditional design management position or something related to it. After my last client tried to not compensate me I've decided I need to move on. I don't want to go back to graphic design. I've come to hate it, lol. I'll put my efforts in finding UX or Product designer jobs. I wouldn't mind doing a Design Manager role (graphic design, but I'll be the boss).

My part-time warehouse work sucks. I'm too fuckin old for this shit. Yesterday, I fell on my butt, luckily I landed in a padded area and suffered no ill effects. If anything I was embarrassed. I may have to work Christmas Eve. UGH.

Since the holidays, I've been working overtime, which wouldn't be so bad, if not for the design freelance shit. I'm just glad the bulk of the freelance work has died down this month (typically it gets slow around this time anyways).

Me
My lease is coming to an end. Still haven't figured out which car I'll get next.

I've gotten two periods this month within one week from each other, lol. Either it's peri-menopause or a combination of stress, excessive physical activity (job overtime) and not consuming enough calories. Or maybe it's due to not getting a period in October? Eh. Maybe. I don't know.

I've loss weight without meaning to. As of Saturday I weight 141 lbs.

I'm always tired and sore. When I say sore I mean it feels like a bus hit me after coming home from work.

That's it! I'm sure there are more things to report, I just can't remember them.

Dear Asswipe,

I'm pretty sure you drive a trash bucket so receiving a ding or 100 is no big deal to you, but unlike you I don't drive a trash heap on wheels. Next time tell your passenger who may or may not be some snot nosed little brat or a ghetto/hick loser to open your shitty car door with more caution. This is SoCal, we are an angry and violent bunch, so the next car you ding/scratch might just be your last. 

I hope you get one of those $500 speeding tickets you walking herpes sore.

Sincerely,

Someone who wants your car to get keyed.

Why are you not available? Why do I have to wait a week for you to arrive?!

I hope my tire arrives on the 25th, because it sucks not driving :(

And no, I don't want to drive on that shitty spare.

Right now my bad tire is patched, so the air leak isn't as bad as before. I make sure to pump air in it every morning, that doesn't stop the TPMS from lighting up like a Christmas tree. My car drives like an unstable drunk. I'm assuming, letting it go completely flat compromised the integrity of the sidewall, making it unstable to drive on. 

UUUUUUUGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!

I swear, whomever left their stupid, shitty nail for me to run over deserves to eat a bowl of black widow spiders. 

 



Back in February I traded-in my Jetta for the Taos.

I'm back driving a SUV, and I love driving from a higher vantage point.

My second interview for the Graphic Artist/Illustrator position went ok, lol. Whatever happens, happens.

Someone just hire me already, I'm sick of the job searches, resumes and interviews.

I'm exhausted.

I gotta find me a money tree or some really rich geezer who likes fat chicks, lol.
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Tomorrow I have an appointment with the court clerk about my speeding ticket. Nothing serious, I just need to confirm they received my completed certificate from traffic school. Our county court system is so antiqued it's sad.

I also have to take my mom to her doctor's appointment tomorrow after my phone appointment with the court clerk. Can't do it next week since her asshole doctor is taking the whole week off. The guy is so swarmy, I just want to punch his fuckin face off.

Typical Riverside Medical Clinic.

Now I remember why the Riverside Medical Clinic is not on my preferred list of specialists. When I was a kid I had a pediatric neuro that was contracted with the center. He was completely worthless as a doctor and fellow human being. I was having an allergic reaction to my medication and I needed to switch to a new medication. My treatment was delayed by a good month because the asshole went on a three-week vacation BEFORE making sure I was ok.

Anyways, the specialists at the Riverside Medical Clinic are pure garbage.

Windows 11

So after spending thousands of dollars last year on a Surface Studio 2, I can't upgrade to Microsoft's newest os?! In fact, I'm willing to bet most Windows users won't make the cut. Why? In order to upgrade to Windows 11 you must have a newer 8th generation processor that supports TPM 2.0 (If on an Intel processor). For example, let's say I have a shitty 8th+ gen Atom processor I can get Windows 11, but if I have a superior yet older 7th gen i7 Intel processor I'm outta luck. There is absolutely NO real reason to exclude these very capable processors except to spur new license and hardware sales.

Pissing off their loyal Surface/PC customers sounds like a GREAT plan. Do they really think owners like me are going to drop thousands more on a platform that has shown time after time that they don't know what the fuck they're doing?!

I'm old enough to remember Windows 10 was suppose to be the LAST version of the os and all updates will be treated as a service.

Yeah...

Oh and remember Windows Mobile, or was it Windows Phone, no, it was Windows 10 Mobile before it died.

Yup, that too.

Can't forget about UWP and how Windows 10 Mobile and Windows 10 would be one OS that shared apps seamlessly.

Uh huh, never happened because Microsoft didn't have the talent to pull that shit off.

Despite it's price and various bugs, I LOVE the Surface line. I LOVE my Surface Studio 2, but I'm tired of investing in an ecosystem that is run by idiots who can't stick with a coherent long term strategy. Their incompetence is costing me money. I'm going to keep my Surface Studio 2, but unless Microsoft shapes up (won't happen) this will be my last Windows based PC. I was leaning toward a new Surface Pro tablet to replace my old SP4, but now it's going to be an iPad Pro.

Congrats Microsoft, from here on out, my next computing purchases will probably be from Apple.


Delta Variant

WHO urges fully vaccinated people to continue to wear masks as delta Covid variant spreads

Well no shit, especially considering break-through infections from the Delta Variant amongst the fully vaccinated are on the rise. When the CDC announced vaccinated people no longer needed to wear a mask, I cringed for many reasons. Did they think people would honor the "vaccinated" part?! The idiots (the willfully unvaccinated) amongst us celebrated that they can roam around unmasked now.

*Sigh*

This sounds so eerily familiar.

Any extra terrestrials out there what to adopt me? I promise I'm not high maintenance. I only require water, nectarines, a non Windows computer, and occasionally a delicious snack.


General Shittiness

UGH, I feel so shitty. It's so hot and humid. The heat makes me so lethargic.

I found out the VIP car wash program has been eliminated. Sucks. The program was for those who purchased/leased a new car from the dealership. Oh well. My lease will be up in a few months anyways.

Creative Market declined my request to open a shop because they couldn't verify my identity.  *Sigh* After speaking with a support rep I added the needed contact info and resubmitted my request. Who knows if it'll be approved.

My favorite plant is dying.

I dropped my brookie on the dirty gross floor. Very disappointed. It looked so delicious. 

Some asshole backed into my car in traffic. Luckily for him I had no damage, but seriously...the guy must've been baked to not see me or hear my very loud honking. 

*Sigh*

If he wanted to make a right turn, just move to the fuckin right. There was no reason to back up.

Ok, I've vented and now I'm going to move on.

Yup.

I wanted to go to Walgreens tonight, but my car won't start. During my last visit they first told me I needed a battery recharge, then they told me I didn't. I guess they were right the first time.

*SIGH*

Service is closed tomorrow, so I guess I'll call Monday.

Not going to stress about it. Whatever happens, happens.

I took a day off of work today.

I did two of the hardest things today:

1) Temporarily stopped driving and bought a bus pass
2) Informed the property rental agency I'm backing out of our pre-rental agreement

I'm experiencing symptoms of carbamazepine toxicity and need to withdraw from the medication. The new medication is pretty expensive and I don't know when it will be approved from my insurance. So, in the interim while my medications are being sorted out, I decided I needed to stop driving. I hate taking the bus, but it is what it is.

As for the awesome apartment, I needed to give that up too. The apartment had new paint and carpets put in, and for someone like me who's extra sensitive, drug withdrawal plus paint and voc exposure will be a health disaster.

I had a good cry about both things, but in the end I have peace over my decisions :)

My insurance approved my request to switch from generic Topamax (Topiramate) to brand Topamax. That was a pleasant surprise :) Didn't think they would, but they did! I never had an issue with generic drugs, but in this instance generic isn't cutting it. I can see why brand Topamax is so damn expensive.
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Yesterday I received written authorization to see a neurologist. His ratings pretty much suck. Oh joy. But for right now, I'll see how the first appointment goes, if I hate him, then I'll switch.
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So Volkswagen doesn't want to accept responsibility for their toxic box on wheels. I've exhausted all options with them and now it's time for legal action. Because at this point, it's obvious the only language they speak or care about is money. What a coincidence, I'm fluent in money too! Let's play!
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My fall shows are back!

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

I'm excited for How to Get Away with Murder. I hope this season it doesn't disappoint. Not really excited to see Empire after last season's finale. It sorta jumped the shark for me. The same for Grey's Anatomy. Law & Order: SVU is a classic go-to for me.

I just realized I need some new shows to watch. LOL