My Journey

 

I think my boss knows I'm horny for him. When he comes to talk to me he looks straight in my eyes with a shit eating grin and lightly flirts. At first I resist eye contact, but in the end I fail and give him this come-hither smile. I can absolutely feel it forming too, lol. 

Half of me is mortified the other half just gets hornier.

HAHAHA.

Yeah...

He's not even my type, but the man is sexxxy. He wears those form fitting t-shirts which shows his arm sleeve tattoo...

God help me.

I hope he's MAGA, because that'll help to kill all horniness from now to the end of time.

 I've lost count, lol.

I struggled with getting out of the 180s despite calorie counting and exercise. I think I started to eat more no no foods and I just didn't want to put in the intensity into my workouts. It's ok, because the 170s is proving to be so much better.

I'm excited about entering the 160s, I haven't been that weight since...2008/2009? I'm just so proud of myself for sticking with my diet and exercise. 

 

Five years of avoiding covid is gone. I've been feeling pretty shitty the past few days, but today I felt something was off so I took the covid test. Positive.

*SIGH*

At least I have an excuse to eat breads (toast) and avoid people for a good while.

The past four weeks have been difficult to lose weight due to all the Ozempic side effects, period issues and increased cravings. But I did manage to lose 5 lbs. Hopefully the next four weeks I'll see better weight loss numbers.

I'm 5 lbs away from dropping to 179 lbs! Very excited! I still have 54 lbs/24.5 kg left to go to reach my goal weight of 130 lbs/59 kg :)

I was going to talk about something else, but I can't remember, lol.

I was ready to claim victory on the constipation and vomiting, but it came back. I thought incorporating a magnesium supplement would help with the constipation. It didn't, but it did help with that worrisome fast heart beat, lol. What helped me go poop? I drank an electrolyte powder that contain artificial sweeteners (stevia and sucralose). Since those types of sweeteners give me a laxative effect I was able to go within the hour. I stopped because I was consuming it everyday and the weird tingling in my fingers came back. Around September/October when I was dealing with electrolyte imbalances I was drinking that powder everyday and developed this weird tingling sensation in my fingers. I wasn't worried it was seizure related. I worried it was diabetes related since I am pre-diabetic. So now I'm at square one since the fiber gummies have stopped working. 

Right now I'm trying the following in order to poop:

• Taking the fiber gummies
• Taking the magnesium supplement
• Upping my fiber intake by eating more fruits and veggies
• Upping my water intake
• Using laxatives

Since I'm averaging 1-2 pound weight loss a week, and struggling with constipation, nausea and vomiting I don't think taking Ozempic is worth it. I'm going to finish my dose then see how I fair without it. 

Only two days in and I'm struggling. Saturday, I took the 1 mg dose of Ozempic and already I'm dealing with nausea. I haven't vomited yet, but that's because I'm being VERY cautious with what I eat. Even though breads are my mortal enemy, toast in the mornings and nothing else, has helped battle this shitty feeling. I was able to eat normal foods for lunch and some crackers, but now I'm feeling the nausea coming back hard.

UGH.

I'm trying to distract myself from going into that awful puke fest mode, but I don't think it's working. All my go to anti-nausea methods are not working. This is almost as bad as the carbamazepine fiasco, but that was more my fault since I didn't listen to my neuro about slowly titrating the dose and got really sick. I was vomiting every damn day and had to take time off from work to deal with it.

Hopefully, the nausea lessens within the next few days and I can go back to my regular exercise schedule and meals.

 

It's about time I clean it out and unsubscribe to a bunch of things.

These are fabulous! I can now poop everyday! Since I'm on Ozempic and oxcarbazepine I developed a terrible case of constipation. No matter how much (or little) fiber I consume it just isn't enough. I take these and within hours I have to poop. 10/10.

Speaking of poop issues, I had the most disgusting thing happen to me while adjusting to the 0.50 mg dose. ( Gross TMI )

I'm nearing the end of week 3 at the 0.25 mg dose.

Thoughts

Originally, I wasn't going to weigh myself until I was a month into my new diet, but I've learned I need to weigh myself weekly to gage what is working and what isn't. 

Week 2 was stagnant. I just maintained instead of losing weight. It was disappointing, but I have to remember to take into account the extra weight I usually gain around menstruation time (UGH). I also changed the injection site, in theory it shouldn't matter, but based on my limited observations (I'm only three weeks into this) I think it might.

This week the hunger suppression was a bit more compared to last week, but it definitely wasn't as intense compared to week 1. The food portion lessons I learned in week 2 helped me to lose weight this week despite feeling so hungry, lol. Basically, I exercised greater food discipline this week. It also helps I'm not on my period, which causes me to binge on loads of food and bags of snacks.

I'm going to see if the hunger suppression goes back to week 1 levels when my dose is upped to 0.50 mg. If I'm doing the heavy lifting by discipling myself to eat much smaller portions, do I really need this drug? On the other hand, it does a fantastic job of regulating my blood sugar so I don't have those dreaded hypoglycemic 'I must eat or will die' situations that lead to overeating. Maybe I can try other diabetic drugs that don't have the severity or intensity of Ozempic's side effects. 

Side Effects

The three most glaring side effects so far in week 3 have been severe constipation, fatigue and itchness/rash. The first 2-3 days are the worse. By Friday most of the effects of the drug have worn off (My weekly injections are always done around 9 pm on Saturdays). I've been taking magnesium and increasing my fiber intake to help with the constipation, not sure if it's working, because I started taking it towards the end of the week when the drug's effects are significantly lessened. The following weeks will help me determine for sure.

Another side effect I've noticed is having more trouble seeing. Vision changes are scary. I already wear glasses and without them I can't see. If my vision becomes further impaired I'm going to stop taking Ozempic. Ruining my vision isn't worth it. There are always other drugs like Mounjaro and Zepbound that uses tirzepatide instead of semaglutide as the active ingredient, to try.

I hope week 4 will bring greater weight loss and relief from the side effects.

It made me so happy to see "Big Tony" get an awesome enclosure upgrade.