My Journey

Dieting

I don't want to exercise or limit my calorie intake anymore. Frankly, I'm tired. I just want to eat horrible junk ALL THE TIME now and sleep.

I'm so close to my weight loss goal, but I'm sabotaging myself by being lazy and undisciplined.


Health

I hate Kaiser. It is one of the worse health insurance company I've had the misfortune of dealing with. When a former co-worker told me don't go with Kaiser if you have a chronic health issue(s), I should've listen because she was so right. The doctors are trash, the organization is trash, everything about them is trash.

It's hard to stay motivated to be the healthiest person you can be when the organization that I pay to keep me healthy, consistently throws road block after road block. It's frustrating. Sometimes I want to go down there and beat the living shit out of all of them (my medical team + C-suite executives). Don't worry I won't, because I don't want to ruin my life over people who are a temporary annoyance.

Anyways, I still have cysts (unlikely they completely ruptured), and surprise, surprise I still have a slow heart rate with no explanation in sight. The holter monitor (Zio patch) didn't determine anything conclusive. Was it suppose to? Whatever. I'll do what I've always done -- figure it out myself.


Work

I'm trying to look at things from a positive perspective, I have jobssss, when a lot of people don't have one, but man...

I'm tired. I'm physically and mentally BEAT. The only freelance clients who can still afford a graphic designer are either flakey when it comes to pay or just cheap assholes who want champagne on a beer budget. Also, a soon to be former client tried to get free consultation services by setting up a Teams meeting asking me my opinion on screen flows for his UI/UX project. NO ASSHOLE, I WILL NOT GIVE YOU FREE WORK because you sometimes send shitty work my way. I shut that shit down almost immediately. I haven't heard from him since, 😂.

Warehousing/supply chain is...well...sucking. The gig one isn't offering many shifts due to low volume (thank the tariffs for that). I'm not broken up about it because well I don't want to do it anymore, lol. I'm holding on to it for two reasons: the economy and weight loss.

The parttime one is going into their slow season. I'm also good with this. I need a break.

I need to ramp up my efforts into finding either a long-term contract situation or a decent/stable W-2 design employer situation. Even with all the aforementioned sucking, I still find it hard to motivate myself into putting effort applying for these jobs since the application process for many companies seem broken.

Gosh, I don't know what else to call her, lol. I guess I can refer to her as my colleague. Anywho, she reached out for design/technique guidance, which is fine. I'm always happy to help a fellow designer out.

Unfortunately, her experience is going as expected, which isn't great. Actually, it would seem her current experience is worse than mine. Apparently being called "a mediocre designer" doesn't instill a lot of confidence and love for the company. I doubt she is a "mediocre designer." Yes, she doesn't have a plethora of design experience, but I've seen some of her work and it's fine for a corporate setting. The problem isn't with her, or with me or some of the past designers, it's the way the organization functions, the lack of direct communication, and nonexistent lead times. You give the designer poor direction, you get a poor product. This is not rocket science.

Her "I want to quit" milestones are nearly identical to mine, lol. Now, I warned told my former boss if organizational issues are not addressed and fixed, the next designer will quit. And here we are exactly one year later with a new designer, that wants to quit, lol.

Today is the day!

Pretty light day. Had a two hour Teams meeting with my replacement to go over where everything is stored, software demos and any additional questions.

So far, I've only got two emails!!! :D One of which was from the new director. He wanted my contact info in case he needs a freelance graphic designer. I was flattered :)

It feel so good knowing I won't get one of those "URGENT" idiotic emails anymore.

I just wish I was in a better celebratory mood. Cheesecake's passing is still pretty fresh. I think it would do me some good to get some fresh air and spend quality time with myself.

All that is left is finishing uploading my files, then it's BYE! LOL.

The company's credit card just got declined for our latest print orders.

LOL.

UH OH. 

7 more days to go!!

She wants to quit and it's only her third day.

Crap.

I'm not rooting for her to fail. I actually like her, but I don't think she'll last long, especially with this group of vipers.

The problem lies with her grasp of Adobe CC and her lack of design experience. She has great potential, but she needed to have a firm grasp on CC and heavy experience dealing with digital and print out the gate.

I will create tutorials for her and guide her on the most important files. HOPEFULLY that'll be enough to get her going. 

The CEO is a stupid fuckin cunt.

She has the stupidest, most idiotic, lousiest ideas in the entire fuckin universe. The worse part is, she doesn't consult anyone, she DEMANDS we execute per her instructions. What's the point of having a graphic designer, and marketing director if you don't want to listen to a damn word we have to say!

I calmly and very respectfully mentioned to her it was a bad fuckin idea combining two documents with our branding in the front and branding from the other company in the back. The shitty document had two covers...Yeah no such thing, but for the sake of this rant let's say two covers.

Guess what? The other company said NO. LMAO. Glee what a big fuckin surprise!

Maybe next time ASK THEM before having me do extra fuckin work, when we already have very tight deadlines. Or listen to your graphics "team" when we say it's a bad fuckin idea!!!

17 days to go!!!!

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 Program book is due to the printer on Monday, but the assholes who I work with hasn't got all the copy/materials done yet. Oh and the CEO is a noncommittal cunt.

LOL

34 more days to go!!!!

I'm going to put on some really angry rap and maybe some Metallica on while I'm making this ridiculous edits. 

Yes, angry music will make me feel better.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

What graphics team?!

I'm the graphics team! My boss doesn't do any of the designing. I'm the one who does the heavy lifting.

Or maybe because I'm leaving my name is not to be spoken? 

HAHAHAHA, whatever.

40 more days to go!!!