My Journey

In the last update, I was still at my sister's place helping her out, my mom was recovering from her kidney stone removal, and I was not driving. Fast forward two months later: I've left my sister's place, my mom is now recovering from severe pneumonia, and I'm driving now.

Lot to unpack what happened the past few months. I'm just glad my mom is on the mend and things are slowly getting back to normal at least on my end.

My mom's Dexa scan results came in. What we see in the medical portal are raw numbers that need to be interpreted by the Nurse Practitioner (NP). I attempted to read the results based on the graph shown, but I told my mom to wait until the NP has the chance to process the data into a more understandable form.

Did mom listen? NOPE! Instead of patiently waiting, she goes to the worse possible person to help decode the scan results. Whom may that be you ask? If you guessed my moronic sister then you would be correct. She gets my mom riled up by telling her, her height is wrong in the report.

NOPE.

Stated height of 58" equals 4'10" not 4'8" like my idiot sister is claiming. My mom is in denial that she is a tiny woman and therefore overweight. I love my mom, but she willfully accepts these stupid fuckin answers from my equally stupid fuckin sister. How many times does this dipshit need to be wrong for my mom to understand that maybe my sister should not be consulted for anything? It's like me asking a pigeon to explain the Theory of Relativity. Like my sister, all the pigeon is going to do is give me a dumbfounded look, peck a few things, shit, then fly/run off.

HEH.

*SIGH*

Anyone want to trade sisters/siblings?

Hemorrhagic Ovarian Cyst...either that or I have an endometrioma. The radiologist couldn't differentiate between the two due to "bowel gas," lol. Well, I've been extremely bloated, gasey, constipated, and been experiencing a whole lot of diarrhea. Not to mention pain, fatigue and breast tenderness.

So my remaining ovary is probably fucked.

I'm worried this will lead to another salpingo oophorectomy. I don't care about being sterile, I worry about having another open procedure with a long recovery time. This is the absolutely worse time to be going through this. If my surgeon had removed everything six years ago, I wouldn't be going through this today.

The report recommended I get a follow up transabdominal and transvaginal ultrasound in about 6-12 weeks to monitor the situation. The only thing I can do is to wait and hope for the best.
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My mom decided she wasn't going to have the Lithotripsy to remove her kidney stones. Ok, that's fine, it's her decision, but at least take control of your own health and follow up with the doctor about the lab work. I have enough on my plate, now I have to make sure she's good too? It's not old age, she has ALWAYS been this way.

As a kid, I had to schedule and attend my neuro appointments ALONE, because she (and my dad) couldn't be bothered to take responsibility for their own kid's health. So I'm not surprised when my mother can't be bothered to check her own stupid fuckin messages and act like an adult for once and take ownership of her health. 

I love my mother, but she makes me so fuckin mad sometimes. Why do I always have to be the parent in this relationship? And this is one of the reasons why I don't want kids.

Maybe one day she'll surprise me. 

LOL

Nah, I'll be waiting forever.
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Since the last post, I've had two phone screens and one actual interview. The interview went great! Too bad I'm not going to get the job. I mean I was shocked when I got a call (yes, they actually called me, lol) to schedule the interview, because I don't have a major skill requirement. Sure I'm learning, but I don't think they want to invest so much time and money getting me up to date on that skill set.

Eh, just got to wait and see what happens.

 After years of Trump hiking the national debt Republicans are NOW concerned? 

Give me a fuckin break.

We all know McConnell (how is this fossil still alive?) objects only because a Democrat President is proposing it.

Not really feeling up to commenting on other important news.
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Sinus issues and an UTI has me feeling like shit. Drinking lots of water and taking cranberry supplements. As for my sinus issues, my nasal spray has helped a little. That hot shower really helped to relieve pain in my face and head. Still have a headache tho.

I was only able to do about 30 minutes on my elliptical this morning. I don't think I'll be able to do the full hour tonight either.
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Electrolysis for face and breasts were approved. But according to my provider the abdomen was not? Only 25 hours?

Hmm...

My approval letter shows 50 hours. 25 hours for each perhaps?

*Sigh*

I'll have to call insurance again to clear this up.
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My sister is a loser and an idiot, but what else is new?

"Texas is mostly a black state" --My sister.

Actual Demographics:
White: 78.7%
Latino/Hispanic: 39.7%
Black: 12.9%

Good lord, my sister is an ignorant moron. 

 *Sigh*

Dreamwidth needs to have the equivalent of the retweet Twitter feature. If it did, I would repost this EVERYDAY. 

This month is on par to be just as shitty with a potential to surpass the last few months. In other words, nothing new.
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Trump and this country continues to be a raging garbage fire. MAGA. 
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Things are good at work except for a passive-aggressive asshole who has vowed to "get back at me" for not attending some stupid award function. Yeah, good luck with that you stupid fucktard. What normally functioning adult gets butt-hurt because he had no one to talk to at an award function? Here's a thought, maybe he should've offered me a ride, instead of telling me to take a cab/Uber/Lyft.

I can see why he has worked with so many different cities/agencies. I give him a good two to three years before he transfers or gets fired. He's bound to get butt-hurt with the wrong person.  
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My family deserves to be eaten by a hungry volcano monster. Those selfish assholes can all fuck off.
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Pet Sematary 1 and 2 are absolute garbage, LOL. Maybe that's the charm?

My mom thought it would be nice/appropriate to send my uncle a condolence card regarding the passing of his daughter (my cousin). Each of us will write a message and sign it.

I'm awful at writing/expressing condolences. I don't want to say too much to the point where it gets weird and painful, but I don't want to say too little where it looks like I don't care. Eventually I give up and search google for helpful messages. I don't copy them outright, but they certainly help to formulate my own message.

Anyways while searching for helpful messages I found this site that will sell you a CD full of condolence/sympathy messages for $24.99. Great idea except the writing is horrible! I would never pay a cent for any of these. Here are some of my favorites:

The semester is OVER!!! I'm so relieved! I turned in my final painting on Friday. After coming home I slept and then I slept some more. After only getting 2 to 3 hours of sleep a day for the past week trying to finish my last assignment I'm beyond exhausted. Friday was officially the end of the semester, which also means I'm unofficially done with school. I have to wait and see if I passed my art history class to offcially celebrate, but I think I did.
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Next goal: find FULL-TIME employment and move the fuck out. My family are Cheeto supporters. I thought I could over look that, but coupled with all their other bullshit I say FUCK them. I have lost what little respect that I might have had for them. That goes for any Cheeto supporter. The hell with respecting differences. If you can condone the crap that the Cheeto monster has done and continue to do then FUCK you too. I don't need people like that in my life. Looks like I'm going to need new friends. Good riddance.

Haven't been in the mood to write, or much of anything else lately.

Former client contacted me out of the blue yesterday wanting to "catch-up." I'm using the time before our skype meeting to update my livejournal lol. In about 20 minutes I should know what half-baked idea/project he wants me to mock-up for him. Probably some stupid wannbe hipster app that only appeals to millennials. Yeah whatever, as long as he pays me it's all good.
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Still miserable and hot.
Still living with a drama queen and her enabler.
Still have the same problems I did months ago.
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I start the new and hopefully my LAST semester next week. It's already off to a craptastic start. These state universities are not made for us non-traditional students. They inconviently schedule these bullshit meet-ups right in the middle of the day. Even worse some of these classes are scheduled for the morning or mid day. Yes, because all of us are 18 year olds who have no jobs or financial responsibilities. 

Gotta have classic 80's hits in my excerise Spotify playlist. I will always associate "Danger Zone" by Kenny Loggins with Top Gun LOL. Second favorite is "Run to You" by Bryan Adams
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My sister is now trying to find dentists who will perform an oral exam and x-ray under general anesthesia. LOLOLOLOLOL!!!!!!!!! Ummmm...yeah...ok...GOOD LUCK WITH THAT!!!!

*Sigh*

Whatever. I think for my sanity I won't think or blog about it anymore. Unless she dies or does something incredibly stupid...err...well nevermind. She'll do something stupid guaranteed.
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It's been really hot. Miserably hot. Hot and humid. We had excessive heat warnings off and on for the past two weeks. I've been spraying the birds regularly to keep them cool. They seem to like the fan too. I can't wait for the day I can move out and take my birdies with me and leave the crazy behind.