Tooth Fairy

May. 7th, 2017 10:22 pm
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Dear Tooth Fairy,

My sister is stupid and starting up with that whole "I'm going to die from an imagined tooth/mouth infection" again.

*Sigh*

So Tooth Fairy please do me a solid and just remove all her teeth. Problem solved.

Thanks for listening!

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My mom thought it would be nice/appropriate to send my uncle a condolence card regarding the passing of his daughter (my cousin). Each of us will write a message and sign it.

I'm awful at writing/expressing condolences. I don't want to say too much to the point where it gets weird and painful, but I don't want to say too little where it looks like I don't care. Eventually I give up and search google for helpful messages. I don't copy them outright, but they certainly help to formulate my own message.

Anyways while searching for helpful messages I found this site that will sell you a CD full of condolence/sympathy messages for $24.99. Great idea except the writing is horrible! I would never pay a cent for any of these. Here are some of my favorites:

 
"I am at once sorry and relieved to hear of Jane's passing. Like all of you, I loved and admired her dearly. Few people can be a productive as she was throughout her life. Because she was so bright and had such vitality, I am sure she would have suffered greatly had she lived much longer in her condition. Although we hate to lose her, we are glad she didn't have to suffer long. Sometime in the near future I would like to bring some photos of your mother from our college days. Please let me know when that would be appropriate.
 
I get what the author is trying to say, but it just comes off as tone-deaf and offensive. Might as well write  "Whew...good thing Jane died. It was getting bad up in here." LOL

 
"I am sorry to hear that after a valiant battle with cancer your father has passed on. It seems unfair that his illness was properly diagnosed only three months ago and he is already gone. My thoughts and prayers are with his family and friends who must now accept this sudden reality. I hope good memories can help ease the pain of this loss."
 
LOL. At this point just write "He dead and went quick! Suck it up because the man is a goner" gives the same impression of callous disregard. 

There are more examples on the site that are equally bad. 
 
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I finally got the news that my cousin died. She was diagnosed with late stage breast cancer around March 2016. She lived a good six months longer than her initial prognosis. We weren't close, but the news does hurt. She fought hard to live and I'm just sad she lost her battle.

This isn't "goodbye." It's "see you later."
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The semester is OVER!!! I'm so relieved! I turned in my final painting on Friday. After coming home I slept and then I slept some more. After only getting 2 to 3 hours of sleep a day for the past week trying to finish my last assignment I'm beyond exhausted. Friday was officially the end of the semester, which also means I'm unofficially done with school. I have to wait and see if I passed my art history class to offcially celebrate, but I think I did.
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Next goal: find FULL-TIME employment and move the fuck out. My family are Cheeto supporters. I thought I could over look that, but coupled with all their other bullshit I say FUCK them. I have lost what little respect that I might have had for them. That goes for any Cheeto supporter. The hell with respecting differences. If you can condone the crap that the Cheeto monster has done and continue to do then FUCK you too. I don't need people like that in my life. Looks like I'm going to need new friends. Good riddance.
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Dear Imaginary Santa Claus,

Bring me a Surface Studio with 32GB of ram, 4GB GPU and a 2TB hard drive. Oh and my very own place away from my moronic family. Preferably somewhere on a livable Mars. If you have the time throw in a new car that runs on air power and can fly.

Sincerely,

Ana renewed2

Grumpy

Aug. 18th, 2016 03:50 pm
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Haven't been in the mood to write, or much of anything else lately.

Former client contacted me out of the blue yesterday wanting to "catch-up." I'm using the time before our skype meeting to update my livejournal lol. In about 20 minutes I should know what half-baked idea/project he wants me to mock-up for him. Probably some stupid wannbe hipster app that only appeals to millennials. Yeah whatever, as long as he pays me it's all good.
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Still miserable and hot.
Still living with a drama queen and her enabler.
Still have the same problems I did months ago.
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I start the new and hopefully my LAST semester next week. It's already off to a craptastic start. These state universities are not made for us non-traditional students. They inconviently schedule these bullshit meet-ups right in the middle of the day. Even worse some of these classes are scheduled for the morning or mid day. Yes, because all of us are 18 year olds who have no jobs or financial responsibilities. 
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Enablers will continue to be enablers. Screw that! Maybe I'm looking at this situation from the wrong perspective. Maybe I should delight in knowing my sister will burn herself to the ground. It's very hard to be in close proxmity to such dysfunctional foolery and not be affected by it.

I tried to let the situation be, but it's hard to do it when I'm constantly suffering the consequences of other's moronic actions.

I would full heartily embrace watching my idiot sister destroy herself further, except she'll take my mom down with her. I try to tell myself my mom chooses to needlessly suffer, but she is my mom. Why does she have to be such an enabler?

Figuratively speaking my sister has already poured kerosene all over herself and anyone around her all I need to do is wait for her to light the match and presto! Or maybe I should light that match...call-in an anonymous tip to the code enforcement department and watch the whole situation BURN! Oh man that would be delicious! But I know that would only encourage my mom to make excuses for her and it certainly won't change my mother's enabling or my sister's loser ways, but it would be fun watching her lose her shit. Hahaha.
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Gotta have classic 80's hits in my excerise Spotify playlist. I will always associate "Danger Zone" by Kenny Loggins with Top Gun LOL. Second favorite is "Run to You" by Bryan Adams
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My sister is now trying to find dentists who will perform an oral exam and x-ray under general anesthesia. LOLOLOLOLOL!!!!!!!!! Ummmm...yeah...ok...GOOD LUCK WITH THAT!!!!

*Sigh*

Whatever. I think for my sanity I won't think or blog about it anymore. Unless she dies or does something incredibly stupid...err...well nevermind. She'll do something stupid guaranteed.
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It's been really hot. Miserably hot. Hot and humid. We had excessive heat warnings off and on for the past two weeks. I've been spraying the birds regularly to keep them cool. They seem to like the fan too. I can't wait for the day I can move out and take my birdies with me and leave the crazy behind. 
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Today my sister finally went to the dentist and...she lived LOL. After all the hysterics the dentist sent her away with a prescription of antibiotics and ibuprofen for her gum infection.

LOLOLOLOL!!!!!!!!

This would have been the end of my post except more drama ensues! X-rays? Nope, because she felt like she was "choking." Apparently the machine obstructed her breathing to the point she didn't want to continue. You know because dental x-rays will definitely choke you to death LOL.

Ok no x-rays, fine what about an oral exam? No to that too. You see the precious delicate flower didn't want to open her mouth wide enough for him to perform a proper exam because it hurt. LOL!!! So no x-rays or oral exam. Good thing I didn't miss work for her I would have been angry. Basically the dentist didn't want to put up with her BS so he gave her a referral to another dentist 20 miles away. Apparently he doesn't deal with "complicated" patients. That's code for 'I don't want to deal with your stupid face.'

LMAO!!

Yup my sister is a delicate and precious flower that needs to be coddled. She's goining to be 40 next year and still behaves like a nine year old. It's not cute or funny. When will the brainless wonder get a clue and start acting like an adult?!                                                   
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I came home from work to be greeted by my sister dramatically proclaiming she rather die if her "condition" worsens because she has no money for a dentist.

*Sigh*

You see my sister is currently experiencing so-called excuriating pain. What she considers "excuriating" us normal people call mild to moderate pain.

When a normal person thinks they have an oral infection we seek ways to kill it like using Cepacol mouthwash (it's anti-bacterial), hydrogenperoxide or a hot water salt gargle. But since my sister is a special and delicate flower she immediately jumps to the most sanest and logical conclusion--she needs oral surgery and she will likely die from the infection. LOL!!!

First shouldn't you try the easiest and most accessible treatment methods first? Then if you have no success and experiencing other symptoms proceed to visit your nearest urgent care and get a prescription of anti-biotics? My sister qualifies for Medi-Cal, which is free medical care. So what the heck is the problem?

To be frank I don't think this is a legit dental emergency. I think she inadvertently put pressure on her cheek while sleeping and nipped her gum/cheek in the process. LOL. Since she doesn't practice good oral hygiene it probably got infected. Since she shies away from anything hard she let it fester and the infection got worse. So the pain she's experiencing is probably gum inflammation/irriation. LOL.

Whatever. She's a freakin moron. I know I shouldn't say this, but I just don't care anymore. Maybe she's right. Maybe this infection will defy all odds and kill her...and to be honest...it would be a relief. It would be good riddance to an overly troubled and burdensome individual. I'm tired of dealing with a lifetime of her stupid shit.
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After years of annoyance, fustration, bitterness and finally an all consuming hatred I think I'm ready to admit I need to refocus my efforts and leave the situation to the Lord.

Since I decided to go back to school and get a BFA in Illustration I had to make a lot of sacrifices one of which was moving in with my mother and my older sister. This wouldn't have been so bad if my sister wasn't such a spectacular mess and my mother being the indifferent enabler that she is. During the time that my sister has lived with my mother she has developed self-defeating "quarks." Basically my mother has allowed my sister's dysfunctions to grow like a maligant cancer, destroying everything and everyone that it touches.

I have pleded, argued and even fought with them individually on multiple occasions to enact change within themselves to better our living conditions. Yet the situation continues. Well I've had it. I'm too tired trying to reason with people who can't be reasoned with. I LOVE my mother and I will always want the best for her, but if I'm being honest with myself she has to shoulder a lot of the blame for this mess. She has the power to change the situation considering it is her apartment, but she chooses to let my sister do as she pleases. I know deep down my mother knows what needs to be done, but because it's hard she's unwilling to do it. Ok fine, she doesn't want the responsiblity of discipling and teaching your kid that actions have consequences, that's on her. She has chosen to live in misery due to decades of poor parenting, doesn't mean I have to.

Thoughts on my sister )
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So far my incision is healing and I'm feeling a lot better. My gyno gave me the go-ahead to drive soon, so I'm looking forward to that :) Despite all that I'm still hating being some handicapped gimp. Having to depend on people who lack basic life skills is not a good feeling. This experience has given me a lot of perspective who I should have in my life. When I eventually get married, I'm going to make damn sure that person will be my equal. I'm not ok with being someone's mommy and babysitter.

Anywho, so back to my healing. Despite having zero complications relating to my surgery, somehow I developed cellulitis at my IV site. Figures. So far the antibiotics have been doing a decent job keeping the infection at bay, but I'm still worried.
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So I got everything I needed to get done...BARELY. Client picked up paintings. I was horrified that the paint wasn't 100% dry. A small area was still tacky. Driver was a douche about it. Eh. Oh well. I was just relieved it was done. After busting my behind all night and only getting a few hours of sleep I went back home and fell into a coma.
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Got my recipe project done. Well partially done, but considering all the pressure I was under, I didn't care. I absolutely accept a crappy grade. Fun times.
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RadNet FINALLY got their act together and I was able to get my tests done. It almost didn't happen again, because they were running late per usual and I couldn't wait for the tech. Off to the bathroom I went. I completely or near-to, emptied my bladder. So I was told either reschedule or drink as much water as possible in the waiting room. I wasn't about to get these tests rescheduled for the FIFTH time. So I drank LOTS and LOTS and LOTS of water. So much that I got sick ran toward the bathroom (but the door was locked) and barfed in the hall-way. LOL.

*Sigh*

At the time I was horrified and embarrassed that I couldn't hold my water. LOL. Looking back I'm kinda glad it happened. It's kinda of a "screw you" RadNet, "this is what I think of your service" *barf*

HAHAHAHAHA!!!

On Wednesday I have an appointment with my new gyno to go over the results. She's alright. Not the best, but better than that idiotic blow-hard with the ghetto office staff. I found her organized and respectful staff refreshing.

I really don't know what these new tests will reveal, but the sooner I know the better. All my plans are in limbo, because I can't plan anything until I know if I will have minor or major surgery and the extent of the recovery time. It's all really annoying and stressful. Especially when all the responsibility is solely shouldered on you.
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Got my mother's and I's taxes done in the nick-of-time.

UGH. I hate doing things at the last minute.
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Drove down to San Diego last weekend. My mother tagged along. My art history class requires us to pick a museum and a piece of work to write about. So I picked "Death of a Virgin." It's located in the Timken Museum in Balboa Park located in downtown San Diego. It's a beautiful place with a nice ocean breeze. I would like to return when I don't have so much stuff going on.

The drive wasn't very eventful. Coming back there was a bit of traffic, but nothing too bad. I was very tired by the time I got home.

Unfortunately since it was a last minute thing, I didn't realize this crazy hippie festival (Earth Day) was going to be held the same day I decided to go down there. Parking was NIGHTMARE!! Then my phone died. I needed it to take pictures. To make a long story short these places should really invest in a charging station. Anyways I found an outlet and it took an hour to get my phone charged.

Took the required pictures, ate our bagged lunch. Watched the hippies dance and do other hippie things. We joked about being in the jungle then left.

Annoying

May. 12th, 2014 07:29 pm
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So...I love my mom and all, but man can she be sooo annoying at times. I'm trying to enjoy a night of listening to my spotify playlist and here she comes talking to me every five minutes. Really? You can't ask me that some other time? Or could it wait when I'm not busy? Oh boy.
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Not in a romantic sense. Things are quickly culminating to a head on many fronts in my life. Work is getting intense, upper management has laid down the gauntlet of ultimatums, either produce or get fired. Yeah, it's a wonderful time to be a new hire right? LOL.

*sigh*
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School is winding down, but the pressure has upped ten fold due to all the different projects, tests and papers.
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Waiting to see if my rental application gets approved. I initially thought I had no chance, considering the rental agent informed me the person in-front of me had a better chance to get the apartment. Now that the person backed-out, now I'm the forerunner. I should hear something soon.
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A certain family member is being difficult again (no surprise). I do have a heart to realize that person is lonely and craves companionship, but let's be honest here, who's fault is it that person is in that position? It certainly not mine. If you go through life being a self-fish, controlling, manipulative asshole don't be surprised toward the end of your life that no one including your own kids wants nothing to do with you. I find it interesting that he would flip-out that I didn't call him for two weeks. Yeah, two weeks is such a looooong time to go without speaking. Look I'm sorry you got sick and don't have any friends, but don't latch onto me to the point where you are demanding I call you within a certain period of time. Then have a tantrum and make stupid declarations that you can't take back all because someone doesn't call you back when you want them too. At this point I'm very close to just saying to this person I'm done, have a good life and enjoy your imaginary new "friends." I'm too exhausted, too tired and too stressed-out to deal with this emotionally damaged and demanding person.
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Ugh. So annoying!!! Certain people need to learn how to speak-up when they don't feel comfortable about something. And other people people need to learn how not be so damn manipulative and controlling.Does anyone want to trade parents? Pretty please...with a cherry on top????

Sigh

Apr. 28th, 2013 02:51 am
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I've come to the realization that my portfolio sucks. If I want a fighting chance to get an industry job then I have to retool my portfolio.
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I finally made contact with my father.

*sigh*

Let's just say I have mixed emotions about it. I know he will never change. So the big question is: should I just cut him out of my life, the way I had to cut so many other family members? I don't at this point, but it's something I need to really think about.
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Are done! I went ahead and e-filed both my mother's and my taxes using TurboTax. While I have been struggling with my relationship with God lately, I have to say he showed me the importance of doing the right thing. Late last year I decided to stop stealing/pirating software. Thou shall not steal, that is one of the ten commandments. I would be a hypocrite if I professed to be a born-again Christian and kept on stealing. So when I had the opportunity to illegally download TurboTax 2012 I resisted and searched for legal free options. Well I did find a few, but I badly needed to import data from my 2011 tax return. To make a long story short I contacted TurboTax for a solution and to my surprise they OFFERED me a totally FREE DOWNLOAD of the software of my choice!

At times doing the right thing is not easy (not by a long shot!), but my experience has demonstrated to me that God will indeed provide as long as we place our faith in him.
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Me and my family have been blessed by God. We may not have lots of stuff, but we have Jesus. Not many can claim that. We are living in dark and perilous times, as evidenced by the incident at my school (clash between Christians and non-believers). Things will get worse before it gets better. But God has promised we will win at the end :)
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I think it's time to join the singles ministry. After mingling with the secular non-believing world everyday, it would be nice to interact with fellow brothers & sisters in Christ on a regular basis.

Ok that's it for now, I hates typing on my phone.
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So I called my father last Saturday morning. I have mixed emotions about communicating with him again. On one hand he's my father and I love him. On the other hand, my conversations almost always leave me feeling somewhat upset. Mainly because he drudges up the past so much. For someone who claims to forgiven everyone, he sure likes to recount his excuses of why he did the things he did. I for one don't care who's fault it was or wasn't, in my eyes I forgave everyone including myself for what happened. If you keep bringing up stuff that supposedly has been forgiven, does that mean you haven't really applied forgiveness to the situation? What is done is done, no amount of finger pointing, recounting exaggerations of certain family members and the like will ever change anything. 
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Despite having financial difficulties, this Christmas I'm actually happy. Looking back the past two years, I'm so relieved to be a single women again. No more allergy masks, no more overbearing shrews, no more rude/disrespectful doctors/nurses, no more hearing anti-Christian sentiments, in essence no more BS. If anything this relationship has taught me what I need/want in a partnership. The next relationship I have, the person MUST have these three qualities:
  • MUST be born-again Christian. The bible was right. Nothing good can come from an unequally yoked relationship. 
  • MUST NOT have an overbearing parent(s). If the person has one, they must be willing to stand-up to them. It's not my place to fight my significant other's parents.
  • MUST NOT have cat(s), dog(s) or any other furry creature. At this point I don't care if they are housed outside, I want NOTHING to do with them. I AM EXTREMELY ALLERGIC TO THEM AND WILL NOT WEAR A MASK OR MEDICATE MYSELF.
Everything else, I'm willing to work with. I'm not in the market right now for a boyfriend, but in the near future I will be looking.
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CSU applications still pending. I wish they would hurry-up and make a decision. My future hangs in the balance. I plan to move close to whatever CSU will have me. I just hope I won't be in the same place come next year, I'm so sick of Riverside. I want out NOW!!!
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Oh and I almost forgot...Merry Christmas to all :) I hope everyone's Christmas was fill with peace and joy :)


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