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A Time To Let Go
Apr. 25th, 2016 06:55 pmAfter years of annoyance, fustration, bitterness and finally an all consuming hatred I think I'm ready to admit I need to refocus my efforts and leave the situation to the Lord.
Since I decided to go back to school and get a BFA in Illustration I had to make a lot of sacrifices one of which was moving in with my mother and my older sister. This wouldn't have been so bad if my sister wasn't such a spectacular mess and my mother being the indifferent enabler that she is. During the time that my sister has lived with my mother she has developed self-defeating "quarks." Basically my mother has allowed my sister's dysfunctions to grow like a maligant cancer, destroying everything and everyone that it touches.
I have pleded, argued and even fought with them individually on multiple occasions to enact change within themselves to better our living conditions. Yet the situation continues. Well I've had it. I'm too tired trying to reason with people who can't be reasoned with. I LOVE my mother and I will always want the best for her, but if I'm being honest with myself she has to shoulder a lot of the blame for this mess. She has the power to change the situation considering it is her apartment, but she chooses to let my sister do as she pleases. I know deep down my mother knows what needs to be done, but because it's hard she's unwilling to do it. Ok fine, she doesn't want the responsiblity of discipling and teaching your kid that actions have consequences, that's on her. She has chosen to live in misery due to decades of poor parenting, doesn't mean I have to.
( Thoughts on my sister )
Since I decided to go back to school and get a BFA in Illustration I had to make a lot of sacrifices one of which was moving in with my mother and my older sister. This wouldn't have been so bad if my sister wasn't such a spectacular mess and my mother being the indifferent enabler that she is. During the time that my sister has lived with my mother she has developed self-defeating "quarks." Basically my mother has allowed my sister's dysfunctions to grow like a maligant cancer, destroying everything and everyone that it touches.
I have pleded, argued and even fought with them individually on multiple occasions to enact change within themselves to better our living conditions. Yet the situation continues. Well I've had it. I'm too tired trying to reason with people who can't be reasoned with. I LOVE my mother and I will always want the best for her, but if I'm being honest with myself she has to shoulder a lot of the blame for this mess. She has the power to change the situation considering it is her apartment, but she chooses to let my sister do as she pleases. I know deep down my mother knows what needs to be done, but because it's hard she's unwilling to do it. Ok fine, she doesn't want the responsiblity of discipling and teaching your kid that actions have consequences, that's on her. She has chosen to live in misery due to decades of poor parenting, doesn't mean I have to.
( Thoughts on my sister )
