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Compassion and Anger
Jul. 6th, 2015 01:46 pmMy emotions have been swinging between compassion and anger since finding out about my ex's health. According to his mother he's in the ICU with kidney failure. Basically he's going to need a kidney-lung transplant. Not quite sure why it's not a lung-heart-kidney transplant, but to be frank it's not really my business anymore. Yes, I will pray for him to get better, but as far as sending him an email, calling him, or visiting it's not going to happen. That's no longer my place. I'm not his girlfriend I'm not even his friend.
A part of me still cares for him and it did hurt to read about his situation. Another part remembers all the hypocritical BS his controlling bitch of a mother pulled and how he was complicit in a lot of it and then my emotions go dark. I then start to wish all sorts of evil stuff toward them. I know as a Christian I shouldn't feel that way or harbor ill will, but today I just can't help it.
I'm not going to lie, I HATE that woman. If you occasionally interact with her then she's a decent person, but the real witch comes out when you deal with her on a personal daily level. Let's not even talk about her hypocrisy. If the world was perfect she'll die a horrible death and donate her heart (does she have one?), lungs and kidneys to her son. The world would be better for it if she would disappear LOL.
A part of me still cares for him and it did hurt to read about his situation. Another part remembers all the hypocritical BS his controlling bitch of a mother pulled and how he was complicit in a lot of it and then my emotions go dark. I then start to wish all sorts of evil stuff toward them. I know as a Christian I shouldn't feel that way or harbor ill will, but today I just can't help it.
I'm not going to lie, I HATE that woman. If you occasionally interact with her then she's a decent person, but the real witch comes out when you deal with her on a personal daily level. Let's not even talk about her hypocrisy. If the world was perfect she'll die a horrible death and donate her heart (does she have one?), lungs and kidneys to her son. The world would be better for it if she would disappear LOL.
