Reflection on School and Hard Times

Semester is done and I'm free to rest a bit. Well at least until August when the fall semester starts up again. I'm so relived that this semester is over. So many times I didn't think I would make it due to all the personal issues I was going through. I hope by next semester my personal issues that has plagued me this whole year will be resolved. Looking back I know God did help me through it all, but I must say my relationship with him is being tested to the extreme. I know I'm going on a tangent a bit here about talking my relationship with God, but I feel I can't talk about my semester struggles without addressing what I felt impacted many of my challenging situations. There are times where I'm confused, frustrated  annoyed and even angry with God for allowing certain situations to continue as they are. Sometimes I long for the days of being a new Christian, where my faith was strong and carefree. I just wish I knew what God wants from me, because he certainly hasn't equipped me with the goods to do it (what I think he wants from me).  Whoever said being a Christian is easy, doesn't know squat about Christianity. No matter how hard things get, or how many times I feel God let me down, I can never go back to my pre-Christian beliefs or a lack of. How can I go back to a lie when I know the truth?